melancholia

I have a headache and I'm tired and I don't want start a new school and I love the Winchesters so much it hurts and I miss J. and M. and the music I'm listening to is fucking depressing and I hate this, and it's so stupid because only M. would ever understand it and why is she in fucking France?! And, and I...I miss my old fandoms and the way I loved them and this doesn't feel like evolving so much as going around in circles (what else is new?) and it is too fucking late for this. Goodnight.

you were always one to stay the same, girl, i know you want to be the rain